you Love me So Much .. YOUR Real Life has NO Room for Me.. What am I to Believe.. pathetically Reviewing My Flaws

Ya I Love Ya
I Think your Amazing and Hot
But I just cant’ find a way to
Your Real World and Well,
You can’t come to me in mine or
you Will Rock the Boat
That I know as My Real Life..

I am on your Whim, when your Ready for me
In your Real Life, then I can Show Up…
I can be there.. When I Want to Come to You
.. Well that is of no Matter, its all about your World..

Just Frustrated Today 
At those who say they love me,
Care about me, but have every excuse
That could possibly come up to keep me from
Their real life and I wait Pathetically
Like a dog at the gate for the master to come home..

A Part of Me I Need to Change..


Not Even Time for a Cup of Coffee
with Me but Call me a Friend.
You Kiss Me, you Look Deep into My Everything
you want me naked all over you, you want me
talking to you that way forever...

You are grateful to Know me,
I play, laugh, walk, Eat Alone..

I am not looking for your Every Day,
but once a month, a week.. a phone call
a Visit.. How pathetic am i.. and then
the Minute your Real Life is Ready
for Me then I Jump.. how Sad am I really?

For as you Keep Me at Bay
And I pine away for you
My Self Esteem Washes to a Distant Shore..