..Letting Go without Closure or Justice in the Heart Craved Way ..

From my Room,

my Heartfelt Music

pouring into my Craving Ears

I long to hear her say those

Words Again, Look at me that Way,

Touch me Again in that Way.

.. the way she was with me..

Before her Fear Set in, before our

Patterns Danced their fate..

I sit in my Room,

I sit by the mountain streams

I travel beach to beach, shore to shore

and I play back the words

that no longer she says to me.

Let Go They Say

thing is My heart is aching,

my Mind is trying to make sense of Why..

I wish I could say, hey just the way it is and move along..

yet What happens is I over analyze and my heart

pays the admission to the show I play over and over

of How She touched me, how she saw me, texted me,

reached for me and the amazing things she said to me

that Now are Simply as far away as life before birth

here on this planet of lesson by design.

And I know I signed up for this,

however, I feel, I love.. i am in love with something

at all times.. whether it a woman who has loved me,

a woman my words paint.. a past.. a present.

I am always in Love and .. yes I torment

myself to beckoned tears wondering

so many whys of her pulling in from me..

Wishing i was a Fuck You sort of gal and could say..

.. whatever and move on to my next day.. thing is

I am Not that woman, i need to understand it all ..

I need Justice in Love and it will never

come the way i crave.. hence a journey of learning

 that ya she loved you, she wanted you, she touched you

all the way to the souls heart and ya now she has moved

her heart on for her reasons.. accept it.. allow it..