I Believe in the Forever of the Lingering Messages, I Cannot Stop Hearing even When I hit Delete

Why do We Replay Messages
of When she Loved Us "That Way"?

I Suppose it is just so darn hard to
come to the realization that ..
um ya I was the love of her life,
she called me baby, she missed me,
she wanted me "that way", she said I was so Hot,
and well she was so .. SO very in to me in Every Single Way..

I haves these here
Messages and Texts to Prove it...
oh But wait, I don't have her in my world
and My phones have gone silent,
Did she simply change her mind,
did her mind change her heart?
Was it an Illusion all along ?

Her Texts became my very breath,
I looked at my phone constantly
day and night for with those
words on that little screen came
SO much Love, So much lust..
so much I Believe..

With those words there was and Energy,
that words are just not divine enough to describe
and Truly How do I let go and face the
Cold hard fact that she simply changed,
for whatever reason is really not of matter..
or Is it.. Wait, can I make her feel all
those "amazing" words again ?

Hmmm.. why did she feel them in the first place?
Come to think of it, most of those connected, amazing,
loving, lusting words were before she even met me..
She kind of married me up via text, chat, webcam
and well I think reality Spooked her..
but hey .. I could be wrong..

So let go right..
Erase all the texts, Erase the Voicemails
and Just Let her out of my Heart, my Mind
Right?  That Simple, Right?

hmmmm..

Well there are days I crave her words so much
I can barely breath through it..
See I am a bit of a wordsmith and words
create a deep reality in my heart, my minds eye
and well "secretly" I wish to once again hang on her
Every Word.. as Well .. Secretly I Still kind of love her..

But the thing is, in the Real World
past Online Dating.. well our "Real" Love
Never Really had a Chance to "Believe"
and all the words blur together, and its best
to let go, let goddess, Right?

.. and to as they say,
not Be Sad its Gone
but Be Happy  to have experienced it at all..
Right?

Surely I can Stop Thinking about
what She Once Said, or how she "Use to Feel"
Surely I can stop listening to those voicemails of undying "Forever" Love,
Can't I ?